First of all i just want to say that this is an emo journal so ya...

So today in math class i get a call from my mom, thankfully my phone was on vibrate. After class i call her back and after like 20 trys finally get through. She then goes on to explain that the cellphone bill came and my phone charged up 400+ dollars for using the internet (1 penny for every kb downloaded). So i go on to explain to her the 3 reasons i believed that the plan we have covers internet charges, my dad who talked to the man on the phone who explained we were covered for internet, the man at the att store, and the att website had it listed under our plan that we got internet coverage. But my mom isnt the issue, nor is the whole 400 dollars, its the way my dad is handling it. I come home to pick up my laptop and then he starts asking for a reason why i used the inernet, i told him that he himself, had told me i could. He didnt say he didnt belive me but i can tell, he sounded dissapointed in me. I just stood there wondering how he could forget and then make me feel guilty for an honest mistake.

I just feel very depressed right now as well as stressed cause my dad wont let me see my boyfreind (who i love very much) because he belives that im not gay(but thats a whole other story im not geting into), because of school and the $40 bucks a week it takes to get there. Leading me to my third problem, i have had no luck finding a job at all. Safeway sounded nice in therory, but they keep runing me around in circles with managers not working some days, as well as some people giving me the wrong phone extension number. I just feel like im making no progress as my slowly draining $100 from my grandpa is used up...it was suposed to be used to make a payment towards my japan trip this summer. So the ammount of stress is making me loose a bit of sleep and i find it hard to even sit in this house with my dad anymore.

outside of that i got a B in history so far! I also hang out with my boyfreind during school and after school sometimes, that is the best part of my life right now.